Tuesday, January 14, 2014


Thirty days ago, we put you in the ground.
Thirty days ago, it was cold and snowy.
Thirty days ago, I was numb and I barely noticed the cold.
Thirty days ago the cemetery was filled with people, a vast crowd of bodies that held us up.
I watched the earth fill the grave.
I heard the scraping of the shovels.
Thirty days ago…

Today we stood in that same place.
It was so very very cold.
We huddled in a circle together, a circle of love and warmth.
Just a small group of us.
And some bright balloons, bright against the white sky.
So bright.
Like you.

Thirty days have gone by.
An eternity…and an instant.

Oh, Sammy.
We miss you every minute of every day.


  1. Every post you write about Sammy makes me cry. I'm so sorry for your loss.

  2. Sammy will live on in our hearts and minds forever.

  3. This makes me weep. The balloons. The earth.

    I am holding you and your family in my heart, always.

  4. Thinking of you and your family every day

  5. My heart aches for you and your whole family. With love there is pain. But this manifestation of that truth is so hard and so sad.

  6. My heartfelt thoughts, prayers, hugs and love go out to you and your family.

    The earth...the balloons...the everything...I am so sorry...

  7. I'm weeping as I'm reading this. I am so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you in your unfathomable loss of your Sammy.

  8. Thinking of you every day. 30 days? It's been the longest 30 days ever.

  9. So heartbreaking. Contact me if you like. I have been where you are ..

  10. I have to tell you that i haven't been able to take Sam's name off the list of people i daven for every morning, because it seems so final. So I just look at it, think of all of you, and go on with my tefila.

  11. Sending much, much love and virtual hugs across the miles.

  12. Thinking of you and your family. I'm so sorry for your loss.

  13. I am in awe of your strength. You are amazing and continue to be an inspiration. Thank you for continuing to share with us. You remain in our thoughts, hearts and prayers. XO

  14. yhei zichro baruch. thinking of you and your family

  15. 30 days, it does seem forever, and a minute. But look there, up in the sky, in colors, Superman Sam, flying.

  16. that last picture is very sobering. was thinking of you on tuesday because of the date. glad you are doing this blog and writing in here still. you're keeping his memory going in this way. i've been praying for you and your family every night...that Hashem will give you the strength needed to get through a world without Sammy in it and that he will look out for you and your family. my thoughts are with you even if i don't get a chance to look at your blog all the time. (i find ways to catch up.)

  17. This post has been included in Shiloh Musings: The Ten Commandments' Havel Havelim, Parshat Yitro

    Please visit it and the other posts, comment and share, thanks.